Heeeyyyy. It's my xanga.
I would like to say something profound and witty, in commemoration of my return to the xangaverse and in light of the new year, but time is short as I there is a party going on at my friend's house that I am currently missing out on. So, I must be brief.
I have a job at the Gap. It's preetty fun. My managers are good people, my co-workers are good people, and they seem to appreciate me. So, that's a blessing.
It would be hard for me to talk about everything that God has been doing in me and through me lately, as it would be both lengthy and difficult to coherently type out. The next time you see me, ask. I would not only be excited to tell you, I can practically guarantee right now that you would become encouraged and get something out of it you weren't expecting. Like, just by hearing. Not because of me, but because of something in me.
On the 10th of January I'm headed down to Nashville for a conference hosted by Grace Center, a really fantastic church. It's a little conference on Sozo, which is the Greek word for salvation, and has to do with total salvation- restoration for mind, spirit, body and emotions. And this particular gathering is targeted on how to Sozo children. I really feel led to this, and am waaayy pumped to see what God has to say through it all.
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I've experienced a number of storms, I realize, in the past month. But excepting for one that shook me for a couple days before my peace was truly solid, I have literally walked in and out of these things in a way I did not think possible.
Because something in me has caught a glimpse of Heaven's perspective on my life. And here's a really amazing thing- God is not worried about this. Moreover, he's really, really, outrageously happy and excited about me. And that was before I started doing anything we'd consider "spiritual" that would get us in on good terms with God.
Because we're so sacrifice oriented, and we feel like we just have to DO this stuff to get ourselves right with God.
Well yeah, sort of. But no, not really. First you have see yourself how God sees you, not how you think He sees you. And out of that, you start to see Him as He is. And that causes there to be a relationship.
And that's the only thing that matters. Prophecy and words of knowledge and miraculous healing and angelic stuff doesn't mean anything until there's that. And from that, comes everything. From making relationship, not sacrifice and DOING, your focus.
If your eye is single, than your whole body will be full of light.
Stop looking at what you've done that was bad. He knows about that and so do you. Stop looking at the things you should be doing. He knows you should be doing them and so do you.
Look at Him. Dare for one minute to stop being a busy Christian and become an enthralled child, resting in Daddy's embrace.
Everything else comes from that. From abiding, from rest, comes all fruit. You bear no fruit apart from that rest.
Mmm. Jesus had authority over the storm that he could sleep through. That's something to think about.
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Oh, and if you scroll down, I uploaded the revised and edited Guardian's Fate, which is sooo much better than before, complete with a whole new section at the end of it. But you want to read it all. really.
Happy Christmas,
-Ethan
Comments (3)
Thank you for this entry.
There's some long overdue thinking I need to get done.
this was a nice update. and that's pretty awesome about going to the grace center.
and yes, regina spektor would be snazzy to dance to. i'm thinking more michael bublé as well.
The gap?